the beginning of july also ushered in a startling new pattern in my tarot reading: court cards. specifically, ten court cards in fifteen days: three pentacles (two queens, one king), four wands (one page, two queens, one king), and three cups (one page, one queen, one king). although pulling so many court cards can indicate any number of things, from people in my life to versions of myself to the community energy around me, right now it feels like inspiration and progress, giving me different versions of futures i can pursue. every time these court cards come up, they are holding positions of power and purpose - encouraging me to find my personal strength, harness the magic i carry, move with confidence into whatever is ahead. and while i’ve been dealing with a number of intense transitions and shifts throughout this year, the cards keep pushing me to explore, question, and grow, finding new opportunities and rich potential in every choice and creation.
queens are the most frequent card in the pattern, but it’s also important to note that i’ve pulled no swords and no knights. this is a journey of finding my power, deepening my magic, heightening my sensitivity and passion and drive forward. there may be exploration, but there’s no uncertainty here, no closing myself off, no creating boundaries. in this month of eclipses and transformation, when endless, sensitive water turns to burning, refining fire, i’m being asked to do more than question, wander, or procrastinate. the cards need me to sit up and pay attention.
each suit has its own version of movement: earth is slow and steady, fire is quick and passionate, air is focused and observant, water is deep and intense. and the court cards reflect these various types of progress and perspective, constantly encouraging me to move in different ways, to honor all these pieces of myself. i may feel most connected to my scorpio sun, but we all have every element, every sign in our charts. when i only live in water i leave behind all of the other ways that i can see the world, experience creativity, explore knowledge, celebrate my desires. and by finding myself in every child, adolescent, and ruler, i can see every possibility ahead, every talent and vision and opportunity that lives within me.
it’s a lot to hold.
but being open to potential, being willing to explore those what ifs, creates such powerful magic. when we take the time to see beyond our plans and allow our dreams to expand infinitely, suddenly anything is possible. we have the magic to create a future without limits, an endless stretch of promise. and while it may feel like these cards are giving me too many options, too many elements to work with, i love the challenge of seeing myself in every ruler, every explorer, every powerful figure. i’m not afraid of the possibilities, or the contradictions. tarot makes space for complexity, and gives me room to see myself through multiple lenses.
in one of oprah’s soul session presentations, elizabeth gilbert speaks of jackhammers and hummingbirds - that is, people that focus on one defining passion in their life, digging deep and creating change, while others flit from passion to passion, exploring and sharing and then moving to something new. and after a lifetime of feeling that i had to choose just one talent or dream and become an expert, in the last few years i’ve embraced this broader identity of a creative professional, an intuitive writer, a constant explorer. i’m allowed to run multiple businesses, thrive in shifting environments, reinvent myself on a yearly basis. some wouldn’t want to live a life defined by regular shifts, where the only constant is change - but i crave space and freedom, the ability to adapt or build something new or start another project before i’m done the last one. my inspiration shouldn’t have to be caged in or restrained to one field of focus - i want to let it roam, growing and shifting, and see where it lands before i release it again. and although i may not have worked with any knights in the last few weeks, that adventurous spirit and bold willingness to prove themselves still crackles in the fiery wands, still reveals itself in the patient, purposeful movement of earth.
these pages of fire and water, starting journeys and exploring their abilities, learning to prove themselves and growing from their mistakes - i’m in them both, finding new ways to see the world and being willing to break the rules. but that doesn’t mean i can’t be a ruler too, inspiring others and leading in exciting, unexpected ways, building resources and sharing knowledge and creating magic. and with five queens and three kings, i’m feeling the pull to step forward, to own my power, to be willing to share and connect and inspire in ways i may not have considered before.
the queen of wands wants me to find my fire and let it burn brightly, collaborating with others to feed my passions and expand my creativity. the queen of cups urges me to examine my emotions and sensitivities, learn to trust my intuition and my deepest wisdom, and guide others with compassion and grace. and the queen of pentacles gives me permission to work hard and play hard, to honor my physical needs while taking charge of my world. they all give me space to deepen and share my magic, letting it fill me and overflow into the people and projects i connect with. and no matter how many passions i discover, how many directions i want to follow, there are no restrictions here - only freedom, space, movement.
these queens want me to be everything i am, to own every shred of potential and turn it into something real. and after may’s pattern of sun, moon, and stars, urging me to heal, explore my shadows, and step into the light, and june’s regular appearance of the fool, begging me to take a leap forward, now it feels like the time for me to be willing to lead, to inspire, to share further. as eclipses roll through and we approach leo’s season of passionate fire, adventurous exploration, and deep confidence, i don’t have to stay in the darkness - instead, i can start to share my light.
time to own my endless depths, my powerful creativity, my patience and purpose, and see where they take me.