i've found it difficult to connect with my cards over the last few weeks. not because i don't love them or want to use them, but because my own energy is so incredibly low that it becomes hard to read clearly. sometimes tarot gives me a boost, helps me find direction, raises my own energy in a beautiful way - but when i'm already exhausted, it feels impossible to reach deep and find enough strength to see the messages of truth in the cards. but i miss my practice, miss the wisdom, miss connecting with something outside myself. and i may be completely drained, but just the process of shuffling and listening is still soothing. and while my spread is full of fire and has a few difficult cards, i'm still grateful for the insight this reading offers.
1: ground: what new energy is earth bringing into my life? five of wands. while this scattered fire and competitive tension doesn't feel very related to virgo's exacting earth energy, perhaps it's instead signaling a change of direction or focus. i've been giving almost all of my energy lately to my new job, but it's meant that my creativity and passion have suffered. it feels like all of my fire is lost - maybe this new earth energy will help me find it again.
2: clear: what chaos can be shed to make room for this new energy? father of wands. strong, passionate, crackling with energy, this king of fire can let his charisma take over, and doesn't always think things through before acting. i'm struggling to see the father as chaos when the five of wands so often signals scattered energy and lack of focus, but perhaps his powerful and dominant energy is causing more harm than good.
3: perspective: where could i practice better judgment? the six of wands often speaks to overcoming adversity, and in this case i see it as removing myself from situations that tangle me up or get me caught in darkness. my job right now has very little positivity, and i'm struggling to rationalize why i should stay at all. sometimes we have to push through challenges in order to become stronger and wiser, and other times a situation is toxic and the best thing we can do is remove ourselves from the situation.
4: self-love: how can i avoid self-criticism this moon cycle? ten of wands, a card that i often read as creative burn-out or feeling overwhelmed. perhaps by channeling my fire into just a few specific tasks, i can find some of the self-love i've been missing lately.
5: intentions: how best could i manifest this new energy into my life? mother of pentacles. finally, some earth! she's a relief after all this fire. and caring for house and home, enjoying earthy pleasures, connecting with family and friends - those all sound so lovely and calming and delicious right now. keeping my physical self rested and ready is something i haven't been prioritizing, but applying that strong virgo energy to my own self seems like just the thing to help me get back on track.