swift change, rapid motion, freedom and space - the eight of wands is all about moving towards goals, free of obstacles and struggles. the wands are focused, glowing, pushing all of their energy into that brilliant, sparkling goal just ahead. there's no more hesitation, no confusion. the destination is in sight, the end is within reach, and things are moving fast. i love the look and energy of this card - those golden wands are surging forward, straight and strong, moving towards their target. everything in them is centered around that luscious green island, and my eyes can't help but fix on the perfect little center. the wands know exactly what they want, where they're going, and the path forward is clear.
it's almost too fast, too intense, too much. the speed is palpable, the focus absolute, like a car a breath away from skidding out on a slick road. everything feels heightened, and while there appear to be no obstacles, it feels like one little shift could push everything off course. that focus has to remain, or we could lose sight of our goal, find ourselves pointed in the wrong direction yet again.
i've been having trouble writing this week, floating in the endless, shadowy sea of depression. it's impossible, humbling, distressing - i feel empty. this energetic, positive card full of ambitions and dreams realized feels so far from me, it's completely unreachable. i'm finding comfort in distraction, losing myself in fictional worlds and alternate universes, staying away from friends and family, being quiet, doing anything to forget the person i am. this card feels too personal, speaking of a goal i can't even see.
but perhaps today, this card is simply a reminder to keep looking forward. at times like this i simply need to do whatever i can to find comfort and rest, even if that may look odd to others, even if my internal monologue is vicious and unyielding, even if i feel useless and worthless and pathetic. i may not be reaching the end of an epic journey, but right now every small victory feels monumental. i'm still breathing, still getting out of bed, still struggling. more than that is too much, but i've kept my dog alive, managed to eat a little, am still reading my cards even if i can't write about it.
i'm still here. even if i'm standing still, i just need to occasionally lift my eyes forward - and that can still feel like motion.
one last note - in the spirit of the eight of wands and trying to set small goals, i'm going to try to participate in this month's september tarot challenge, put together by @lionharts on instagram. if you'd like to follow along, find me at @wandering.priestess and see all the participants by following the hashtag #theseptembertarot. see you there!