this weekend is the tarot school’s annual readers studio conference in queens, a four-day event that connects readers, teachers, cardslingers, and creatives for panels, readings, and shared experiences. i’m attending for the first time after encouragement from theresa reed, an incredibly talented woman that i was lucky enough to meet several months ago at a workshop. with a packed schedule and a wide variety of events, i’m thrilled at the opportunity to meet so many fellow tarot readers and writers - while also feeling a lot of nerves and anxiety over working with so many new people and pushing myself beyond my usual tarot rituals.
i’ve written before about my tendencies to work through tarot readings with writing and photography, and the ways that using multiple mediums helps me process the messages of the cards in important ways. writing allows me to clarify my thoughts and intentions, forcing me to be specific when i might otherwise let my thoughts trail off or get tangled. i’m not sure how much space there will be at this conference for me to sit and process my cards before readings - i’m expecting that the emphasis will be on verbal readings, immediate interpretations, slinging cards with strangers and sharing what we see right away. it feels important for me to spend more time doing this - while i love the way i read and process cards right now, i don’t want to feel that it’s the only way i can offer readings. i need to grow, to push myself, to expand my abilities and knowledge and gain more confidence. and i feel a deep longing to meet other tarot professionals, to connect and share and build a group of readers that i trust and can work with regularly.
it feels important to set intentions for this conference, to map out my hopes and dreams and expectations, and to solidify my goals for this time of connection, education, and intuition. i created the simple spread above to help me understand my own priorities more clearly, but this five-card tarot spread can be tweaked for any event or milestone.
intentions & purpose for attending: eight of swords. i’ve written a pretty specific narrative for myself about who i am as a reader, a writer, a creative, and a person. but limiting myself to only written readings or seeing myself as someone that “isn’t good at” connecting with others puts huge constraints on my ability to dream bigger, to chase potential, to trust my own abilities and experience. i’m eager to escape the trap that i’ve set for myself, and this conference allows me to do that in a supportive and encouraging environment.
how to prepare: four of swords. i’ve been taking a lot of time for myself over the last week or two, in part due to illness and injuries but also because i’ve felt the need for quiet, isolation, and reflection. i think it’s going to be very important for me to understand and maintain personal boundaries during this conference, for me to not push myself too far beyond my limits or to do things that don’t feel right for me. taking space to reflect, recover, and heal each day of the conference will be just as important as going into this space rested and ready.
what to keep in mind: king of coins. grounded, responsible, and generous, the king of earth is a reminder of how hard work and perseverance can pay off, and the joys of celebrating comfort and pleasure. this king doesn’t hesitate to help others or expand resources whenever possible, but he also cares for himself and doesn’t apologize for his own needs. as i go through the days of this conference, i need to remember to honor my physical comfort, be aware of how i move through space, and pamper my body. i often forget to eat or drink water and struggle with rest when things are stressful - i need to not neglect my body’s needs during these days, or ignore pain or discomfort.
how to rest and recover: ten of swords. rather than obsessing over every single thing i do or say or think, worrying about my mistakes or about not being good enough, i need to instead allow myself to ask for help when necessary, release insecurities that i’m clinging to, and be gentle with myself. the ten of swords is all about mental blocks, false narratives, and seeing the self as a helpless victim, and will serve as a reminder throughout the week as well after the conference that while i am not perfect, i am not as worthless as i sometimes feel.
inspiration to carry forward: seven of cups. this conference is going to provide endless possibilities, from new connections to deep inspiration to uncovering hidden truths. it may feel at times that there are too many options, and i may be paralyzed by choice. but all of these prospects are beautiful ones, and will provide me with new paths to walk and new ideas to explore. seeing all of these overflowing cups gives me so much hope for the future, for the deep potential ahead and the powerful inspiration that this conference will create.
i can’t wait to see what the tarot readers studio brings, and for what happens next. thank you for reading, and please let me know if you’ll be attending the conference - i would love to connect with you!