i'm deep into my insomnia, going on day five of no real sleep, and tarot feels like a giant mystery right now. it's time to begin week two of the alternative tarot course, focusing on the elements and suits of the minor arcana. and while i'm excited to keep exploring my deck and expanding my knowledge, everything in my head is twisting and turning upside-down. no surprise that today's draw was the seven of cups, a card that perfectly mirrors my exhausted mind and tangled thoughts. while water and cups represent relationships, connections, love, friendship, and emotions, part of my work this week is learning how the different suits overlap and interact with each other. the suits speak to each other, reference each other, and offer little hints and reminders that none of these elements exist in a vacuum. someone who's intellectual and analytical might feel much more comfortable dealing with air and earth, staying connected to the world around them and focusing on knowledge and facts, rather than first considering emotional responses or passionate ideas. and though this seven deals with those watery, elusive emotions, connections to other people that we can't usually control, depths that can be frightening to explore - i can't help but notice the powerful celestial bodies that feature on this card, and those strong mountains in the background. this confusion may be centered on cups and water, but there are references to air and earth too. after all, when emotionally confused, when illusions feel much too real, when everything is sideways and it's impossible to know which step to take next, don't we try to intellectualize, find a rational solution, seek the truth? don't we scramble to find our footing, stay grounded, find comfort in the physical world? when our hearts are disoriented and can't find a way forward, we move to other strengths, work to solve the problem in a new way.
my personal elements are mainly water and fire, but i'm working to incorporate more air and earth into my daily life. i rely the most heavily on my instincts and intuition, rather than my intelligence or ability to recall facts and knowledge. i may live in the physical world, and relish being in nature, but i tend to get lost in my thoughts and dreams when left to my own devices. my weakest element is probably air, as my mind can be a very dark and difficult place. i'm not always comfortable solely in my head, preferring to either lose myself in the physical world or stay true to my fiery passions or swirling, complex emotions.