today's daily draw is a card i worked with just last week: the empress. nurturing, soothing, radiating calm and tranquil energy, the empress is vibrant, creative, and brimming with love. she's a caretaker, someone who makes everyone around her feel both relaxed and strong. she builds people up, cares for their needs, reminds them that they are capable and powerful, and is never afraid to let her own light shine brightly. there's a sensual energy here, a passion and abundance that illuminates the card. she encourages us to care for others as well as ourselves, to reconnect with natural and the world around us, to offer love without restrictions or restraint. she takes us as we are, imperfections and all, and reminds us of our power.
i've got a lot swirling in my head these days - my husband has been pushing himself to the limit and is now sick, work has been hectic, and we're getting ready to head out to california tomorrow for a week-long trip. it's the first time i'll be seeing my in-laws since coming out last month, and i'm both excited and incredibly nervous about what the next few days may bring. i'm also trying to be as loving and compassionate as possible, helping my husband get well before a busy week of travel. the empress can speak to these worries, reminding me to offer nurturing love to my partner, to remember compassion when speaking to my conservative family members, and to stay grounded and connected to the world around me so that i don't get so lost in my mind that i drift away.
since i drew the empress so recently, i decided to gift myself a companion card for some extra clarification and direction: and pulled the three of cups, a card i haven't worked with before. a card of friendship, kindness, and joy, this is a beautiful reminder of the people that i share love with on a daily basis. i have a group of girls that have saved my life in a sense this past year, and i see them here - but this card is also a reminder that i have a supportive family, a strong husband, and old friends that love me even if we don't see each other often. i love my family, but the idea of the family you choose is something i've always really embraced. my chosen family keeps me grounded, keeps me centered, lets me kick and scream and cry when i need it, but also reminds me that i'm strong and brave and more powerful than i realize. they gave me the courage to come out. they encouraged me to seek a therapist for my depression and self-harm. they let me be myself, absolutely and honestly, in a way i haven't been able to before. and that holistic, healing energy of the empress - it's here, in real friendship and love.
there's a lot of color, a lot of soothing energy, a lot of love in these cards today. and as someone that considers myself a dark, swirling mess of weird, it's comforting to see so much positivity here. my main struggle with tarot is honestly reading what the cards are saying, rather than twisting them into something else - but it's hard not to see the tenderness and warm in today's cards. i'll try not to fight it.