i've been pulling a lot of positive cards lately - ones that encourage me to look forward to what's ahead, to seek hope and adventure, to start something new and embrace my own power through it. and it's been lovely to feel so much strength and energy flowing through these cards - but it's been a bit overwhelming too. today's card, the seven of cups, seems to reflect and understand that perfectly. i've written about this card before, and while it's not always the most welcome sight in a daily reading, it can also be a bit of a relief to have feelings acknowledged. this card flips everything on its head, and we don't know which way is up, what time or place or day it is, or even how to move forward. it takes things we thought we were sure of and makes us question them. it can be an indication to stop, look around, take a breath, reassess. things are not what they seem, confusion is afoot, something is amiss.
i've been procrastinating, unsure, feeling simultaneously afraid to start and oh-so-tired of being stagnant. depression, especially when it lingers, is like slogging through mud, like wandering through fog, and it makes everything feel slow and heavy and exhausting. and as i attempt to stand up and stumble out of this darkness, to find my way back to who i know i can be, it's hard to know how to get back into real life again.
in an effort to seek guidance, i pulled a second card for clarification, and got some serious female power: the empress. she's beautiful and bold, a colorful beacon in the darkness. this strong tree is constantly evolving with the seasons, and her brilliant shades of pink and purple speak of spring, of the growth and life that come after a long period of cold darkness. she is warm, gentle, compassionate, and strong.
both of these cards are set at night, but reveal very different truths. while the seven reflects the confusion that darkness can bring, the confusing emotions and conflicting directions, the empress is solid and grounded, confident in her light and her strength. the darkness only serves to illuminate her, causing that which is insignificant to fade into the background.
and while it's okay to be unsure sometimes, to feel hesitant or weak or confused about the next step, the empress reminds me that there can be power in the darkness. finding that inner light is not always easy, but that doesn't mean that it has faded away.