i've been feeling pretty disconnected from my cards for the last week or so. drawings have been stagnant, i'm seeing the same themes in my daily pulls, and have just felt stunted. the last few weeks have dragged as i continue to hurry up and wait for this move to progress, and the cards are absolutely reflecting that. i haven't really felt inspired to write about these cards, as they share similar themes: the four of cups, the five of wands, the seven of swords. i'm stuck, distracted, overwhelmed, confused. today's card is no different, but i want to get back in this practice and glean as much as i can from the cards, even when i'm in a bad cycle. today's card is apt: the seven of cups.
this is a card that looks really different in both traditional rider-waite, and also changed significantly from the first edition of wild unknown (i have the second edition), so there's a lot of symbolism to unpack. while other depictions feature clouds, with cups full of many choices, this newer card instead has a backdrop of mountains and darkness, with an inverted sun and a slim sliver of moon. it's hard to tell if the cups are empty or full, and having both major celestial beings featured along with the disorienting placement of the cups creates an overall theme of illusion, confusion, and indecision.
sevens are typically cards of attainment and action, giving advice on how to achieve goals and what steps to take next. in this case, the seven cups face different directions, indicating that emotions are high and very confused. so many choices, potential directions to go, mesmerizing fantasies and tangled feelings. i don't read reversals but this card works both ways, giving it even more layers of meaning.
for me, this card perfectly reflects how i'm feeling. i'm running in circles, not accomplishing much, feeling like there's so much to do but afraid to start. i think that while this seven acknowledges where i'm at, it also reminds me to take a deep breath, try to see past the fantasies and illusions and focus on what's real. the hard decisions have been made, and now i just need to prepare myself for the next steps.