yesterday's cards were focused on change, upheaval, and finding balance. and after a long day of looking at apartments and realizing that we essentially have a week to sign a new lease and move, my husband and i both came home discouraged, stressed, and frustrated. the apartments that we'd been planning to rent aren't available any longer, none of the units we looked at seem like they'll work, and there isn't much left that we haven't already seen. with only a week to go, how can we do this?
this frantic, confused energy is what i brought to today's reading, and i think the cards are trying to help me. today's draw was the son of wands.
court cards are tricky, and the sons (or knights) are particularly challenging to interpret sometimes. they have a fascinating dual nature about them - they can represent the most single-minded focus and positive aspects of the suit, but can also showcase what happens when the qualities of the suit are pushed too far. he can be so charming and adventurous, ready to seize the day, anticipating the future, up for anything, exciting and passionate and energetic. but pushed too far, his charisma proves to be a smoke screen, his attention wavers, he's so enamored with the next big adventure that he misses everything wonderful in the present. all that passion can turn to frustration, confidence shifts into arrogance, and he slips away without a second thought. he can be fickle, perhaps a bit of a drama queen, and difficult.
while i think there's a lot that can be gleaned from this card, my daily readings usually ask what should my focus be today? or where should i focus my energy? with that in mind, i think this card is encouraging me to stay positive, stay energized, and stay excited about the future. we've been really anticipating this move, but now that it's here we're discouraged about the options, stressed about the process, and confused that we may be moving again very soon. it's hard to get excited about one adventure, when the next one may be even bigger. all we can do right now is focus on what's directly in front of us, find that excitement that we've lost, and devote our energy to making this move work.
how do you deal with sons/knights in your daily readings?