three tens in a row is not a coincidence.
the ten of wands is a card i get a lot. dreary, disorganized, scattered, confused, lacking direction - these wands are tangled in the darkness, going every which way. it's hard to even see the individual wands, or to tell which way they're pointing.
tens being the end of the cycle represented in the minor arcana, and wands embodying passion, fire, purpose, inspiration, creativity - getting this card frequently seems appropriate. my daily work is creative, my brain is creative, my passions are all creative. i'm a water sign, a scorpio. i live in the dark, i trust my intuition, i thrive on passion, i feel deeply. it makes sense that a soul like mine, which tends towards strong emotions and intense cravings, would feel burned out constantly. my job is in the visual arts, so every time i'm working i need to dive into that deep well of creative energy. and my hobbies are all creative too, from the more passive ones (i love to read and lose myself in music) to more active pursuits (writing, tarot, cooking, pretending to learn guitar). creativity and passion are what keep me whole and functional, and some days it feels like the cycle of the suit of wands and fire is one that i live every week.
while this card is very understandable and relatable for me, it also feels like a bit of an admonition. i don't get very specific in my queries for daily readings - i almost always ask for guidance for the day, where i should focus, and how i should spend my energy. but today i found myself rambling, listing all the possibilities and inadvertently asking a million tiny questions about how exactly i should spend this quiet, rather unstructured day. the cards are giving me a clear message - you're scattered, you've overwhelmed, you're exhausted. chill out, prioritize, declutter.
so i asked for a clarification card, and boy did i get one: the lovers. what a beautiful card.
union, joy, love, desire, contentment. it feels like the complete opposite of the ten of wands - like an overflowing cup rather than a tangle of sticks in the darkness. and while i think this card can mean so many things depending on how and where it falls, in this context it feels like advice: to be grateful for my marriage, to be content with what i have, to seek peace in going with the flow, to blend and enjoy all the facets of me. yes, i'm a dark, weird, passionate, intense person - but i'm also married to someone energetic, analytical, adventurous, bright. i need to support him, but can also learn from his enthusiasm and airy, sagittarius energy.
it's okay to feel this dark, swirling energy constantly, and it's understandable that i'd feel burned out a lot. but it's also okay to push that aside, to care for myself, to focus on joy, and to put my energy into being gracious and grateful.